心向快乐第一季

这部剧还是很现实的就是无论George怎样维持表面decent 最终还是会被母亲不理解自己 工作 虚伪的人际关系 逼到自己认为自己需要Mae 自己爱Mae 的境地 最终还是没法真的做到靠自己强大Mae就是个没有主心骨的人 什么feel good 谁活着是刻意不想feel good的 但Mae这种行径的人 就是典型的没有主心骨 随波逐流 不愿意担任何责任 过度需求型人格 吸血鬼类型人格 直到把周围人的能量消耗殆尽再换下一个 她母亲对她的评价才是客观的 就是这人永远在逃避自己应该承担的 然后把所有东西归结于性格问题 这根本就是人格问题 好吗 还有戒毒会上Lava评价你丈夫是不对的 他在纵容你 说的就是这个意思 对你好不是纵容你像个傻逼一样 这算是个什么爱情 这就是寄居蟹人格 Mae母亲把她赶出去才是对的 她说从没有生气过 当然了 自己妈生气有什么用 她只是对你失望透了但就是这么一个废人 清醒的Lava喜欢 体面的Goerge喜欢 大家表面上能维持正常 内心还是因为孤独逼迫地自己骗自己 去选择这么一个失败的人吗这算啥爱情 就是长期约炮 这就是现代人追逐的东西吗 大家还是各自修仙吧

明明是很大的婚礼和教堂却不告诉梅。

跟她说是很小的私人婚礼所以不能将她容纳在内。

这一切的原因在乔治到达婚礼举办地点的时候都初露端倪。

她恐同的朋友。

她家里的麻烦（父母离婚 母亲还记挂着父亲）。

她不敢再引起什么不必要的麻烦了。

我其实有些生气，我觉得她不够勇敢。

可是如果把我放到她得处境里，难道我会更勇敢吗？

我想也不会。

勇敢很难。

真的是这样。

其实，不得不承认一点，相较于艺术电影《燃烧女子的图像》，像《迷醉伦敦》这样的轻松又带些许感动的生活剧情更加具有引起广泛共鸣的能力。

作为一位脱口秀演员，梅马丁其实选择了一种相对边缘的生活方式，然而我想，导演表现的她的情感状态，恰恰是告诉我们，其实很多时候的我们也遇到同样的感情困惑。

我们， 即是，又不是梅马丁。

首先，在感情上，在美好的爱情面前，我们每个人都或多或少是梅马丁。

在梅马丁第一次上台表演时，她用阅读一些文献的幽默比喻来自嘲视奸前任的行为，这在les群体是一个普遍的现象，细腻的心思让我们无法抹去那些曾经的感情关系留下的痕迹，也无法做到对一个曾经同床共枕互相进入身体的实实在在的女生完全忘怀，心软大概les的通病，虽然很多人口是心非。

很难想象，一个人进入了你的生活，把你从一开始平平淡淡才是真的日子中揪出来，然后，有一天，在一切都努力向着未来的美好迈进的途中急刹车，这个时候那个美好的未来成了雾中风景，你的车也不知道往何处开。

然而，现实生活中，大多数恋上直女的les是成为相对失败的角色，因为直女向来贪图一时的暧昧，并非真心一往无前。

在爱情中，更多的时候是抱定必败的心态让我们彻底丧失了修补或者缝合感情裂痕机会的原因。

而这种不坚定，恰恰就是梅马丁不能持续稳定的维系一段关系的原因。

这一部分是因为在过去的经历中，父母与她的关系不甚乐观，致使她潜意识当中认为自己会成为一个失败的人，可以说是一种不自信的表现；另一方面，这种心态让她更倾向于在一段关系中成为过渡依赖对方的形象，这很大程度上为一段本来就稍显脆弱的关系加上了压力。

在剧中，当梅马丁逃跑之后，一切似乎搞砸了之后，对方再次出现在面前。

然而，很多时候，有些情侣感情之间的小裂缝恰恰被迟迟的等待而不至所撕裂成鸿沟。

其实，我们很多时候的太强烈的代入感会让我们在现实生活中迷失自我，想象着自己活成自以为的剧中人物，然而，这种即刻的涟漪对我们的整个生活宏观上并不造成特别大的影响。

但是，我们确实需要这样的情感营养品。

This story is one of the best twists of tragedy and comedy I’ve ever seen. It hurt my feelings on so many levels... But this pain does make me feel good. I think drugs and death are best friends for a reason. Drugs and death seem to exist in exact opposition to each other, and it's a powerful force that holds you alive. Because you're so so vulnerable. When you quit drugs, you need to find the same strong force that sustains you to live, which is faith and love. When you lose them again, drugs certainly are the biggest, lingering desire to survive that exists in the back of your mind.Fuck, life is fucking bullshit. It's so fucking exhausting. It's funny to say that my feeling is that drugs are at least a choice, but I don't want that choice.I'm still looking for that force to hold me alive, and I still have faith. I can control myself from killing myself as long as my faith is still there, even though I want to die every minute. I've been a bipolar II for many years.（If you know what this disease isAnyway, it doesn't matter.Live fully is to prepared to die at any time. It's enough to have actually lived for yourself. Do not lose yourself for anyone.As Nietzsche said: Life is admittedly a tragedy, so play it as one, with all the passion you can muster.I hope we all have the courage and strong will.(Sorry this is totally RANDOM, I don't know exactly why I want to say it out loud)Bonne Nuit.

上个周末，我窝在家里看完了《Feel Good》， 诙谐又真实的剧情点亮了我整个惨淡的三月。

这部剧包含了很多现代人生活的真实细节，而不仅仅是针对LGBT群体，令我惊喜连连。

忍不住写了一篇影评，回归阔别已久的豆瓣。

01这是一个关于小玉米Mae和小松鼠George的故事。

M是来自加拿大的单口喜剧演员，帅气逼人的她在伦敦的一家俱乐部驻场演出。

G是一所中学的英文老师，最近正烦恼着如何摆脱朋友介绍给她的油腻男子。

两人在一场演出后相遇，电光火石间看对了眼。

于是第一集才开始七分钟，就有了以下令人（我）捂嘴尖叫的画面，像是这样的......

又或是，这样的......

你以为接下来就是两人甜甜的恋爱了？

并非如此。

在两人开启同居生活后，M发现过去一直都是“直女”的G，没有对外公布自己有了新女友。

不仅没有在ins分享她们的照片，甚至还和好友们杜撰了一个根本不存在的男友。

而G也慢慢发现M时常会紧张、焦虑，会因为没有及时接听电话而连发二十多条短信。

更令G感到意外的是，M曾经沉迷于毒品，现在仍需要定期参加戒毒互助小组。

就这样，两人的感情矛盾，与她们的家庭、朋友交织在一起，在观众面前飞快地展开。

《Feel Good》第一季总共六集，每集只有二十五分钟，花上一个下午的时间，就可以畅快淋漓地享用完。

值得一提的是，这部剧是根据主演Mae Martin的亲身经历改编。

现实中，Mae是一名加拿大籍的喜剧演员，近两年通过Netflix《全球喜剧人》系列崭露头角。

她经常在脱口秀上调侃自己染上毒品的少年时期，以及讨论“性向流动”等多元话题。

《Feel Good》可以说是她过往人生的精彩混剪。

02艺术的奇妙之处在于，它能够让这个社会上不同面向的人生故事被看见、被理解。

因此，我们可以看见主角们的自我探索和挣扎。

G在遇到M之前一直都是异性恋，她需要去重新建构自己作为“女同性恋”的身份认同。

一开始她选择了逃避，拒绝携M出席家人的婚礼，在朋友面前虚构自己的“新男友”。

随着故事的发展，当G好不容易（意外）出柜后，又开始担心M对她只是一时的迷恋。

这让M误认为G总有一天会离她而去，回归异性恋的社会。

于是M努力想要成为G的理想情人，她收起了彩色套头衫，锻炼起了肌肉，好让自己看起来更Man一点。

M暗自将自己和传统男性进行比较，她一方面畏惧着G将自己视为男性的替代，同时却又渴望着自己不曾拥有的男性力量。

当自我认同产生偏差后，M感到困惑、痛苦，“我不是男孩，我甚至都不是女孩，无论男孩女孩我都是失败的”。

在这部剧中，我们也可以看见原生家庭的影响有多深远。

M的母亲认为她们母女俩不亲近是因为M是个早产儿，一出生就被放入了恒温箱；而M一直对父母耿耿于怀，埋怨他们在她十几岁误入歧途时，将她赶出了家门。

M对于“被抛弃”的恐惧使她在亲密关系中成为了典型的“焦虑型依恋者”。

她想要时刻与G待在一起，她需要获得G的正面回应。

用她自己的话说，是把一种瘾（对毒品）换成了另一种瘾（对恋人）。

我们甚至还可以看见，即使在所谓的“腐国”，人们对性少数群体仍然充满了偏见和刻板印象。

像是G的那帮损友们对于同性恋的评价，

又或是业界前辈在后台第一次看到M，对她表演内容的猜想。

即便是屏幕前的“我们”，也不断地在给主角们贴标签。

弹幕里最常出现的是“从未见过如此粘人的T”，“永远不要爱上直女”。

这些话语背后隐藏的逻辑是，女同性恋也分“男女”，偏男性化的那方（也就是所谓的T）应该像男性那般阳刚。

而像G这样的“直女”或“双性恋”，最终还是会与异性结婚，是不值得女同浪费时间去爱的。

不难发现，即使是探讨性别认同的作品，我们依旧习惯用传统二元性别的逻辑去评判它。

03在我看来，《Feel Good》的最宝贵之处在于它的“真”。

Mae能够以调侃的方式直面过往，通过喜剧触发更深层次的话题探讨，她的真诚在我看来足够勇敢。

也恰恰是因为这一份“真”，才得以让观众从中窥见似曾相识的回忆、体验、或是感悟。

无论你是否是LGBTQIA+的一员，回想一下在过往的人生里，你是否也被人问过为什么你这么敏感、情绪化？

你是否也为了讨心上人开心，改变了自己的喜好？

你是否也责怪过朋友不关心你，却被质疑明明是你不善沟通？

你是否也以为父母不够爱你，到头来却发现他们才是你永远的依靠？

04最后，对于剧名《Feel Good》，相较于「迷醉伦敦」，我更喜欢「心向快乐」这个译名。

人生来就有着逃避痛苦、寻求快乐的本能欲望。

快乐可以是很广义的，纯粹是让人感觉很好（Feel Good）的那种状态。

以这个角度来看，剧中那些看似糟心的情节，又何尝不是两位主角在追寻快乐过程中的成长？

在本季的结尾，M终于懂得，相信自己被人爱着有多么可贵；G也领悟到，为LGBTQIA+发声不再是课堂上的政治正确，因为她本身就是其中的一份子。

获得快乐的方式千千万万，永远绕不过的是“自我”这个课题。

毕竟，爱自己才是通往快乐的永恒入场券。

# feel good关于关系，交代得非常清楚层次很深完全完全没有被同性题材局限就是人而已这是好厉害的地方Same gender is just a tiny little problem of the whole massiveWe just sort it out4 结束不是爱情，是心里阶段，选择是必然Am in love with u 的确是自己对自己的一种，假设都是伤痛…Kevin这段太棒了 哭崩

才依赖毒品谁不是等一个救赎啊——宗教性都上来了结尾get back together停得正是时候！

完美以及mae真的很cute

因为爱你，所以我选择隐瞒我的过去，我变得不那么坦诚，我对你有所保留。

因为爱你，我会在意你的过去，在意你的生活，也因此强迫你参与你所讨厌的戒毒所。

当然，因为爱你，我不能没有你，我愿意为你做出改变，也因为是你，才成就了更好的我。

故事仅仅是关于同性恋的，涉及的问题却普适于大多数情侣。

编剧太善于捕捉和突出表现恋人生活的冲突。

以自己为故事原型并且出演自己是一种绝对意义上的自我暴露。

（指路，b站搜索Mae Martin 短发女孩的约会困境）一位很棒的脱口秀喜剧演员足够的坦诚充足的信任以及良好的沟通是一段健康恋爱的开始。

This is fucking good😭😭😭第四集之前：I fucking love Mae Martin yet this drama is a little bit normal第四集之后：Fucking awesome plot😭😭😭Mae Martin is super genius😭😭😭

I feel like I'm full of birds. 典型的英式喜剧，好多那种冷笑话哈哈哈哈哈，而且除去主角之外人物有为剧情发展和气氛需要脸谱化的嫌疑。

George真的很美美得像戴安娜王妃。

Mae Martin…我发现我只是喜欢小奶狗而已性别什么的无所谓，所以我原来是无性恋吗（误）看到做爱部分会感觉都是女孩子的话会让我容易习惯很多很多…可能也是对lesbian群体本身不了解不过我不想管那么多剧本真的很好很好。

感觉能体会到日常人与人之间交往的那种真诚与温暖感觉。

情感很细腻，但感觉铺陈有时候不到位，也可能我本人不够敏感。

剧里的话还是美化过的现实…首先addict被编进去本身就是对taking drugs的一种美化…cant help doing something while knowing that it will bring some negative consequences hhhh但是很多琐碎的碎片化现实又fucking real and fucking touching，Mae和George最后对话还有以前其他的对话里面那些词不达意欲言又止还有反复的sorry, I just... 都好London好生活…我们都一样啊。

You are being loved. 那里真的眼眶湿润了。

not an island... 人与人之间的联系真的是拯救一个人的根本吗。

md这部里面的感情真的都好他妈流畅啊。

就是在考试周看然后看第一集的时候：这能拍六集？

看完第六集的时候：怎么只有六集该不会我还要等第二季吧。

看到还有第二季的时候：希望我能先紧着复习😭差点忘了夸导演！

色调真的超级超级棒啊，好多镜头都很漂亮，镜头下的人也无比好看。

调色和色彩搭配都太好了…视角也很棒。

看看这个镜头多绝美！

Feel Good is a low budget 6-episode TV show which mysteriously skipped my attention when it was first brought up by a friend: probably because it features no big star (Lisa is one, but in a small role), and British TV shows like Fleabag and Killing Eve have raised the bar very high now. However, one night, I started to watch the first episode and was very impressed. The not so sub plot of addiction is so well-written. I really like it when Mae (its main character shares the same name with the writer and lead actor, which is a bit confusing) expands the definition of ‘addiction’: ‘it’s all the same feelings, craving, and withdrawl, and relief, and obsession. We are just swapping one addiction for another’. By doing that, Mae Martin (I will use the full name when referring to the creator) connects the love story and Mae’s struggle to stay clean together. Mae Martin challenges the audience to view addiction as not only a struggle among a group of people, but something many of us face when being in a toxic relationship with partners, or, say, social media. By then, I am convinced Feel Good is quite good because the creators know ‘nuances’. Its focus on addiction also reminds me of Killing Eve S2, the key word for its 2nd season is ‘obsession’. While both handle compulsive/toxic feelings between people/people and object, Killing Eve’s take on obsession is disappointing, Feel Good, on the other hand, only gets better episode by episode.Story aside, I am mesmerized by how the show introduces the love story to the audience. It is fast-paced. As Guardian remarks, ‘Feel Good moves so quickly and lightly that it seems impossible it could also be managing to construct characters and burrow into psyches as deeply and empathically as it does.’ You never need to fast-forward; it’s densely-packed but you won’t feel stressful; the plots mingle effortlessly. It takes 30 seconds for Mae and George to fall in love with each other. I love how unconventional and unapologetic it is. I love how an LGBTQIA (bless Joyce) story focus on how the two lovers enjoy their relationship (at least for the most part) without giving too much attention to how they are unsure if the other is into them, or suffering from loneliness because they can’t find a partner. Of course the loneliness issue exists and there is suffering, but there are many representations of those already. Feel Good shows how the relationship can be the start, rather than the ending, of a story. I also like how the struggles of Mae and George are more about themselves making choices than them being in disagreement with a suffocating society. It is refreshing to see not only Mae’s parents, but George’s mother, support their sexuality. Mae’s gig pals don’t make a fuss about her having a girlfriend. The roommate Phil is an angel. The lead of the support group is a gay man; Lava is loved by her mother regardless of her sexuality. While Binky’s husband and his friends are ‘piece of shit’, I don’t see them as homophobic (I could be wrong though). The show demonstrates that everyone can and should be nice to LGBT+ community. I like how Feel Good doesn’t use societal approval as a trope; instead, it allows us to see Mae and George as individuals who make their own decisions. Yes, sexuality is and will be important in their lives, but they don’t let it to devour them, they can still breathe.The relationship is beautifully written and wonderfully performed. I mean THE CHEMISTRY!! Yes there is sex. As Mae Martin said, she didn’t want the lesbian sex to be voyeuristic. I congratulate her in doing a fantastic job!! Feel Good has amazing sex scenes: they are romantic, witty, hilarious, and honest. The director and writers make sure the sex scenes are not about sex/lust only, they are also about female pleasure. Mae and George communicate and share their sexual preferences; they don’t force their fetish on the other, instead, they ask politely. The show doesn’t mystify lesbian sex: even lesbians can’t cum and that’s ok! Feel Good has achieved what Sex Education has done: it has educated people (older than high schoolers) how to have sex, and more importantly, how to discern when the relationship is going south. There are nudity scenes and they are (quite literally) serving the plot: it is when Mae feels most vulnerable physically. The paradox of the physicality and the personality is, however, not restricted to gay people. Mae is struggling because she believes however hard she tries, she can never have George in the long haul because George is ‘culturally straight’. George, however, insists this idea is just in Mae’s head. (Or is it?) It becomes apparent that the couple is not on the same page on many things. Mae is shy but she wants public validation of their relationship: she wants to be blessed by George’s family and friends. George is popular (win the lottery) but she is ultra private when it comes to Mae. She points out her friends just want to crack a joke and emotions (mind, not sexuality), for them, is gross. Eventually, George will have to face her own real emotions. There is a moment where Mae questions why George never like/retweet her social media stuffs. As Fleabag says ‘Hair is everything’, the (non)usage of social media, I argue, is (almost) everything. This again shows the discrepancy between the couple – which, of course, is normal; in every relationship/friendship, such disagreements happen and that’s what makes this show so relatable. It is interesting to note that the dynamic between the two flows all the time. I find myself on the side of Mae and then I am on George’s side! For example, the first episode shows Mae concealing her addiction history from George, which is a bit dishonest; but George also makes Mae think she’s already mentioned her to her friends while actually she’s dating some Crenshaw dude. I find it especially interesting that while George is portrayed as a cold person (she leaves Mae alone in a party; she’s rather cold towards Phil etc etc), Mae can also be quite aloof – check what she does to Lava. When she says let’s not share this with Maggie, it is as if George were saying let’s not tell my friends now. Talking about George and her friends, I really like how the show does about their friendship. It shows that those friendships, even though ‘long haul’, are not necessarily genuine. Indeed, things can be tricky, if not scary, when friends finally choose to be honest with each other, right?Binky’s husband and friends are hilarious characters, but the show makes sure not all the male characters are caricatured. I like Phil a lot; he’s giving me the neighbor who ended up marrying Hannah’s boyfriend’s sister in Girls, especially when he’s mentioning all the baby stuffs. Mae’s dad is a charming character; but I am not sure if he’s a good dad. His ‘Oh I need to check the garden’ is a specimen of dad type, who leaves all the dirty job of communicating with kids to mums. The show also inserts in a MeToo story plot where things turn sour quickly. In all, the portrayals of male characters are multifaceted. Well done.Last but not the least: small roles. Does the show even have small roles? Because everyone shines. Even the shop assistant of that sex shop: the scene is so funny and captivating. Lisa Kudrow is funny but in a cold way – which is really nice. I am not crazy about her first appearance in the laptop; seeing her appear in Blackpool is a real surprise for me (and Mae). I love the scene in Ghost Train the most. Arguing in a horror house/moving train, with all the noise and terrifying man-makes while discussing ‘real emotions’, which is the most terrifying of all – what a genius idea!! The fact that the show keeps vague about why Mae is cast out of the family is an interesting one; I quite like how her mother points out her privilege and that she has everything she wants when she grows up. Again, the show is looking at the mysterious and intricate human mind that is not so easily explainable. Apart from that, I don’t think there are a lot of TV shows that discuss ‘privilege’. Kudos to the writers for highlighting this aspect. The photography is really pretty. It, like TEOTFW, has a consistent tone, which is even reflected when Mae and George are in bed. Note the beautiful blue shadow. The music is nice. The costume looks comfy and lovely (never let the costume steal the show– I’m talking to you, Killing Eve). My favorite, as I said earlier is the pace of narration. Mae has run a lot and it is a signature of Feel Good, like Fleabag’s looking at the camera.Feel Good is about a female stand-up comedian. In the States, there is The Marvelous Mrs Maisel. Both Mae and Midge suffer from a backfire from they using real-life stories with their partner (judging from S1 finale, haven’t watched S2 yet). It is interesting to think how personal the stand-up mateials can be, but having just watched Hannah Gadsby’s Nanette, I am reminding myself that in order to make things funny, the ‘truth’ can be compromised. While Nanette is almost metafictional when Hannah approaches/disconstructs what makes comedy, I don’t think that is the angle Feel Good is heading towards. However, it is still fit to think about the show amongst the powerful works by Mae Martin’s fellow female comedians. The freshness of the show also reminds me of Girls (with its minute depictions of modern female life) and Fleabag (with its candidacy about real emotions). Feel Good deserves more recognition and PLEASE CAN WE HAVE SEASON 2 THANK YOU NETFLIX!!

看完了，我一直疑问这竟然标签是喜剧诶，明明很多时候我看的都心碎的说上图

当Mae复吸后 剧中梅在经历了女友的分手，一度失落丢失自己，甚至想要再次借助毒品摆脱失意，我深有感触，当生活糟糕的时候就会想忘记一切地放纵，但我们都知道，放纵过后只有无尽的后悔以及未解决的问题罢了，或许我可能应该想想一切的根源，与自己和解才是问题的答案

George诉说当年的伤心事 看到这里真的感同身受，自己所在意的所难受的常常是不为他人所感同身受的，我们失落在朋友无意的嘲笑中，把悲伤放在心里耿耿于怀，除了自己谁也不知道除了自己谁也伤不到，我认为剧中的朋友根本算不上朋友，不过是会耍耍嘴皮逗逗乐的一群派对伙伴，但真正的朋友，即使不懂你的痛也不会随意的戳你的伤疤，而是小心翼翼地保护着你。

希望你可以在爱你的人面前褪去伪装。

年少时总是想出去看看，家好像是个束缚自己的地方，但后来遇到了大风大雨第一个想到的还是回家。

梅总是以为母亲不那么爱她，她好像永远在批评她，但其实她只是不把爱放在嘴上，伤心时一句话妈妈就会为你准备好一切等你回家。

多多少少有人迷失在自卑的世界里，我们感觉不到爱，接受不了爱，无法付出爱，什么都不说了跟着台词念一念吧，你是个可爱的人。

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